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To say I've neglected my Livejournal would be an understatement. Anyway, I have. There's just too many places to update and not enough time.

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Hope you're all well.

Hello, LJ

I can't remember the last time I posted anything here so it must be eons ago. I was thinking about this 25 things about you list that's been going around Facebook and that got me thinking about Livejournal.

I thought I would catch up here by selecting a picture from every month that I haven't written anything down but obviously I didn't do that. Time is a very precious commodity these days and right now I am doing this at work because I'm telling myself I am taking a break.

I've been busy working on the upcoming Windows Mobile version. And if you're wondering, yes, Windows Mobile still exists. I don't know if I've mentioned this before but I left my old discipline and now I am a program manager instead of a programmer/writer. I like this new position a lot and I've outgrown the other one. So, I've been busy with that.

Time has been spent...

Well, I was typing that and work beckoned. Back to work. I guess I will finish this post another time.

Hope everyone in LJ-land is doing well.
There's way too many social networking sites for me to keep up with. Of course having a baby does take up a lot of my time as well and I haven't even gone back to work yet!

I hope everyone in LJ land is well. I would love to be keeping up to date with people on my friends list, but the truth is I haven't been able to go online that much and I've mostly been going on Facebook. I finally started updating one of my accounts on Twitter and even that I'm not sure about. Every now and then I go to Friendster as it seems that's the third world country's social networking site of choice? :-p I say that because I was originally from said third world country and it confuses me to no end as to why so many of my relatives and old acquaintances from the old country are sticking to Friendster when there's a much better site they can all pile on to - Facebook is my recommendation.

I'm even on Linkedin and I really couldn't be arsed to do anything there. I am just not that into networking and making contacts online although I do very well in person. It also amuses me that people I know who suck at work have recommendations on Linkedin. Not surprisingly, it is also from other people I know that suck. You scratch my sucky back and I'll scratch yours, okay?

Well, that's online. Offline I have a wee baby who is going to turn 12 weeks old tomorrow. Hurray my wee baby for surviving her mummy! :) Her daddy is here visiting us and he'll be here for another two weeks. I am trying not to think about the day he goes back to Ireland. I'd rather look forward to when the baby and I can visit him - I am hoping for end of November.

The baby is asleep, but I still haven't showered. I've had plenty of time as she's been sleeping a lot today. I used some of that time to prepare food. I haven't cooked in a long time so I am taking it easy. There's really not much cooking to be done, but more of combining ingredients and hoping the food will taste edible, if not good. The true pessimist would buy a bottle of wine to make sure things don't entirely go down the drain so I bought a nice bottle of Pinot Grigio. :) Looking forward to dinner.


I am quite certain I am not suffering from postpartum depression, but I've been a bit weepy and randomly crying the last two days. Mostly I cry when I think about John. I miss him very much. He's coming in July to visit us, but that doesn't prevent me from crying and thinking about how much I miss him - much like what I'm doing now.

We chatted over iChat today. It was so great to "see" him and to hear his wonderfully sexy voice. I am a sucker when it comes to his accent and I miss hearing that voice every day. I look at Fizzy and certain features remind me of her Daddy and that sends tears flowing down my face.

I wasn't expecting it, but I ended up talking to his mum for a little bit today. I was so surprised and didn't know what to say that I totally forgot to thank her for the wonderful gifts she sent to Fizzy. Way to make a good impression, Celeste! I talked to John for a while and I thought I was keeping it pretty lighthearted until he asked me how I was doing. Stupid dork that I am, I started to cry and told him I miss him. Anyway, I can't wait to chat with him again.

He gave me the best Mother's Day present - a MacBook Air. It arrived a couple of days after we got back from the hospital. He knew I wouldn't appreciate jewelry, or even wear it, but I definitely would love a MacBook Air. It also makes it so much easier to carry around. By giving me this, I can now pass on my black MacBook to my sister, who's coming to visit us next week with her girlfriend. It was very sweet of John to even suggest that I give my MacBook to my brother or sister.

It's time to sleep. I just wanted to type something so I can have some time alone and cry a bit. Good night.


Francesca Isabel Kennedy

DOB: May 1, 2008

Just almost two weeks old and already raising hell.

Fizzy's Likes: Milk / eating, sleeping, getting her hair shampooed, checking out her 'hood when awake, keeping mummy guessing as to what's bugging her
Fizzy's Dislikes: Absolutely hates a wet nappy but will put up with a poopie one, having to wear long pants

She seems to have gotten so much heavier in just two weeks.

33 weeks and counting...

Happy Easter to everyone!

I've no plans for today except to go to the gym later and do a wee bit of walking on the treadmill. I've been watching my weight in the last week as I didn't want to gain too much. I feel like a beached whale sometimes, but a lady yesterday told me that I look small or I'm carrying small. Well, that's very nice because two weeks before that one other lady said I look like I'm about to pop. I wanted to say something bitchy to that last woman, but I didn't. There's no point. So I just smile at all the comments and go about my merry, pregnant way.

Well, the last of the nursery furniture was delivered yesterday. I'm quite excited because the paint smell in the room has also faded a lot that I can now go in and shampoo the carpet. This weekend I'm devoting to doing more laundry for Little Bump (as her daddy and I call her) and for things that will go in the nursery. I haven't been able to help myself. I keep buying clothes and things for her. Gah! That's the "problem" with having a little girl. They are too much fun to shop for and the baby shops are just full of so many cute things for little girls.

I really should curb the shopping though. All her clothes are tiny, but I am running out laundry basket space. Right now I've been hoarding all the laundered baby clothes and items for the nursery inside my tiny closet in the master bedroom until I get the nursery sorted out and her dresser aired and so on.

I'm really excited to meet her soon. I had my last 3D/4D ultrasound last weekend and I got to see my little one. She's filled out a fair bit and she's definitely got her daddy's full lips although the jury is still out about her nose. I love her chubby little cheeks. Those have filled out from when I last had a scan in late January. She's still moving a lot and I'm not sure when she'll settle down and engage.

In other news, I've accepted another role at the company. I wasn't looking for a new job but I was approached at the cafeteria one day and asked to interview with his team. I thought, well, why not? I love those guys, they're really cool and they have their shit together. So, I had a chat with my mentor who decided that if I was going for a loop with another team she wanted to interview me for hers as well as she didn't want to lose me. That was very flattering, to be honest. So anyway, in the end I ended up interviewing with three teams and got three offers. It was very hard this past week having to choose just one. At some point it became a sell job with several people from each time trying to sell me on their team so I would pick their offer. Every time that happened I wish I could accept the job with their team. Unfortunately, I do not have two other clones lying around or I would've worked for all three.

I transition into my new role the week of April 21st, I think. I need to touch base with my manager and find out what date he and my new manager had negotiated. When I transition into my new team, I only have about three weeks to meet the team and get a little bit of training and ramping up before my due date is up. After that, I'm out for four months on maternity/parental leave and won't be back until late August or early September.

Tick tock tick tock...

Alive and kicking

I haven't fallen off the face of the earth, but life and work has kept me busy. Also, there's so many other distractions now, like Facebook, which I've been more diligent about updating or posting to or whatever it is people do there. I've even neglected Flickr.

Honestly, I'm not sure how someone can keep up with all the social networking things available online and still maintain a sane life outside of the Internets.

Anyway, so many things have happened. One day I will come back to livejournal and make a long and boring post about it all. Maybe not all of it, but some for sure.

I hope everyone is doing well. Take care!


Sometimes, in one's quest to have what one doesn't have, one tends to forget what one already has.

Thinking too much

It's been a very mellow weekend. Yesterday we just went to a bike shop and John got a new crash helmet and gloves and we bummed around the Apple store in UVillage for a bit. I did get iWork '08 and a new .Mac membership. Afterwards he dropped me off and I later went to his place to watch Alien as I can't remember seeing it before. I know I did but I was too young/scared to remember much.

Today I didn't attend the last of the landscape class so he just picked me up for brunch after he was done. We went to an old favorite and then just checked out a couple of places afterwards.

I know I have a good life right now. I've got a job, good salary, a house, things that I like, and so on. However, I can't help but feel sad or unhappy when it's so hard to do some things - like find a job abroad and stay with the same company. I am envious of people who I hear have found jobs there and are moving, because it's the thing that I want to do.

My inability to make things happen frustrates me to no end. I start regretting decisions I've made in the past when there's no way I could've known what the future (now) had in store for me. If I knew I would face so many hurdles, and some of them don't even make sense and are based on people's biases, I would've made a career change many years ago. But then if I'd done that I wouldn't have known some of the people I know now (most likely including John), or maybe have even felt the need I have now.

I wish I can stop thinking about this. The only time it works is when I'm occupied - either engrossed in work, chores, fun activities, books, or things like that. When I'm idle, this feeling starts again.

I've submitted my resume again last week. I haven't heard back and perhaps I should follow up. This in itself is very hard for me to do. I keep putting myself out there and I feel like I'm being judged each time and I worry I don't measure up. I wish I can stop worrying and just keep thinking positive thoughts and thinking things will work out when they will.


Finding myself

Or at least escaping from the stress caused by work and trying to feel better. That's what I did today.

My alarm went off at 6 AM, but I kept hitting the snooze button until it was 6:30, and then I decided I'll try to get up. I went back to bed at 7. I had a headache again. It's always at the same spot, at the back of my head, not too far from my neck. It's possible it's caused by tension, but I don't have confirmation.

I took the day off. I needed it.

I went to Seattle, went to the Crumpet Shop and had a cup of tea and a crumpet with butter and honey. And then I walked to Sur La Table where I got a 9.5" tart pan, and then to La Campagne and sat down for lunch. It was great food. I saw the chef. I wanted to ask if I could take his picture or at least tell him the food at the French restaurant was really good, but I didn't. I headed back to where I parked my car, down the garage at Pacific Place. I decided to take a detour and check out two stores. I didn't get anything there. I headed back to the car, tried to find the onramp to I-5 North, and completely missed. The signs here in Seattle are not very good.

I eventually found my way back to the freeway, but I jumped on 520 instead, coming from Lakeview Blvd, through Montlake. It was all a happy coincidence. I made it to the gym at 4:30, just in time to keep my appointment with John. It was our second time at the gym this week. It felt good to be doing something again. Oh, and the rowing machines are new and now have these little games we can play. We raced against each other, he won of course. And I did a lot better this time on the fish game.

When I got home, I just had some dinner and then I watched one of the movies I had - Princess and the Warrior. It was a German movie. I liked it.

My headache hasn't gone away fully, but doing all these things made me not notice it as much. And now, I think I will go upstairs and get ready for bed.



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